Pity party!

When will this weight issue ever end?

Always doubting myself...

Comparing myself to others....

Thinking I should look one way due to the pressures of society.....

Not being content with who I am inside, hence the outside has a lot to do with it....

Never feeling COMPLETE.......

Always saying "oh, there's always tomorrow," when that tomorrow comes and goes....

Thinking being overweight ( fat ) and being ugly go hand in hand.....why is that ?

Never feeling that I have accomplished anything, because I give up or let LIFE get in the way...

Wishing I was someone else....

Wishing I had different genes & jeans.....

Wishing & wanting to feel sexy....

Wishing & wanting to not see something following me from behind when I look in the mirror....

Wishing that the actual person who is loosing the weight, is me.....

Wishing, Wishing, Wishing, Wishing!


Oh how is this possible to have such negative feelings about oneself? Always on the verge of frustration for feeling so helpless....BUT

Am I really that helpless?

No I am not BUT I feel I am and that's what is wrong with this issue! I am helpless to Change !!!!!

I am not one to try pills, occasionally I have bought into the Acai Berry pills that are suppose to work, but seriously I hate taking pills so how in the world am I going to remember taking 2 before breakfast, 2 before lunch & 2 before dinner.....Are you freaking SERIOUS? 

Or how about the colon cleanse pills that are the new fad? Yeah, o.k. so that's suppose to make me pooh my fat out, that is so laughable it's funny. Yes, I do know some of those products do work & the ones that do are in the $100.00's of dollar range per month....And I do NOT have that kind of cash laying around to WASTE!!

I have my gym membership and I don't recall going to the gym in over a month, maybe a month and a 1/2.....shows how dedicated I am to that and am throwing an unused amount of  $20 bucks away....I must like throwing money out the door....haha

I always wonder how people can get so overweight, I know there are several reasons, but what are they? O.k. so we as women have the famous Baby Fat but that baby is now almost 16 years old, can't use that excuse anymore can I? Haha
We have a thyroid problem, now that one I can't say anything about since I am not enduring that one.
We have the issue where we eat to get the comfort from OTHER ISSUES in our lives and aren't dealing with them with the right therapy.....so FOOD & BAD EATING HABITS BECOME US! BUT WHY? WHY & WHY?

Why as a society and as a woman do we put so much energy into hating our body & the way it looks? I want to run, just take off and run....but I Hate running, but my mind wants to do it. Why am I having this conflict with my mind and body? It does me no good, they are so not on the same page.
When I joined the gym I bought all these new workout clothes, shoes, socks, sport bras, pants, tops.....etc thinking this would help motivate me to get into the gym.....but I was so wrong they have now become great lounging around pants....HA

I am so sick of this topic, you can find so much information online about loosing weight, how to loose weight, how to do this & that.....But really? None of this information is helpful because guess what it's ONLINE  so the couch potato can  JUST read and do NOTHING about it..........oh that's me I fall into that category.
Once again the Dr. Pepper is seeping through my veins.....the cookies are in my thighs....the chocolate is in my eyes....Yup I'm a BAD EATER!! I don't even eat 3 meals a day, lucky if I get 2 in. However, if I am trying to be good I will pack my food for work which is typically......

Homemade yogurt parfait with regular oats & berries ( Morning snack )
Tuna fish sandwich on thin whole wheat bread, string cheese and fruit ( lunch)
Cottage cheese with an apple ( Afternoon snack)

Then I come home and finish off the day with nothing good. Lots of grilling going on at our house this summer, most of it unhealthy.....then after loosing my meal plan for the day I give in and always say, oh I will start on Monday......Ha that Monday always comes and always goes.........

Oh what am I going to do with this overweight body of mine? What am I going to do to really get my physical appearance to the degree I AM HAPPY WITH? What am I going to do to stop feeling sorry for myself that I was too lazy ( maybe life just was tearing me down though through all the crap I dealt with in my previous marriage that I didn't have time to work on me ) in my earlier years to change it. I know that as I get older it does get much harder to get it off.......Do I REALLY want to be a size 18-20 the rest of my life in pants and a large in shirts? Come on think about it, DO YOU?

YOU JENNIFER ANN SHEELY IS THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN CHANGE YOUR THOUGHTS & BODY IMAGE!

YOU CAN'T FIND IT IN A BOOK,
CAN'T FIND IT IN PILLS,
CAN'T FIND IT IN FAD DIETS, 
CAN'T FIND IT IN BABY PLACENTA,
CAN'T FIND IT ONLINE,
CAN'T FIND IT AT THE GYM ( UNLESS YOU ACTUALLY GO )
CAN'T FIND IT IN YOUR COMPLAINTS ABOUT YOURSELF
CAN'T FIND IT IN SITTING AROUND WATCHING T.V.  OR FACEBOOK
CAN'T FIND IT IN ANYONE ELSE 

BUT

YOU CAN FIND IT IN YOURSELF, BECAUSE YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS THE POWER TO FIND IT!

YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN GIVE IT YOUR ALL, AND PUSH FORWARD

ONLY YOU!!!!!!   

ONLY YOU ARE THE ONE THAT CAN CHANGE YOU!